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Can you believe we are in week 9?!
Sometimes, God has to let us descend to our lowest point in order for us to reach our highest potential, and I believe that's what He did for me.
I've talked about this topic before but I still just feel the need to speak on it, not only for myself but for others who also may be going through.
I'm just going to be honest: my life has been horrible since May. I was involved in drama I had nothing to do with, someone I really cared about betrayed me, and I could feel my walk with God slacking. Basically my summer was HORRIBLE. These events took a huge toll on me and caused me to enter a slight depression, become bitter and angry, and it really damaged my self-esteem.
However, after much prayer and crying I had a revelation: I shouldn't be upset; I should be rejoicing! Yeah, I went through a hard time but I'm still here. God removed two very toxic people from my life. I actually met some pretty cool people who I can now say I am friends with because of the situation. People who know me and know my character know that I am not what happened to me; they know I'm still a good person, despite my shortcomings. I was able to walk away from those toxic people without having to worry about seeing them again, which is amazing! And most importantly, I'm still alive, which means I have another chance to get it right with God.
Do I still think back on it from time to time? Of course! And I hate myself for being so naive and allowing myself to go through it, but I've come to accept the fact that that's just a part of life; everything is a lesson, and I've learned my lesson from that situation. It is now time to move forward with life as a renewed and refreshed creature in Christ (Philippians 3:13). I have so much to look forward to; I ain't got time to be bothered with that craziness anymore! I have too many friends, family, and fans to be concerned with the opinions of two measly people. Pshh!
I mean really, how do you think things would have turned out if Jesus, who knew He was going to be betrayed by one of the disciples, would have spent more time trying to suck up to them and make sure they all liked Him, rather than spreading the gospel which was His purpose on this Earth to do? We all would've been in huge trouble!
So whatever you may be going through right now, whether it be a divorce, relationship problems, family troubles, whatever....just remember that God is there with you every step of the way. I know it may not seem like He's there, but He is(Isaiah 40:10, Joshua 1:9).
That's the thing about God: He's just like our earthly parents. He wants the best for us, but we don't do everything right. He wants us to learn from our mistakes, and He knows that sometimes He just has to allow us to learn on our own for us to get it. And I believe that's how He did me. I hate I had to go through that, but who knows what else would've happened if he wouldn't have let me go through that? I could've been in a much worse situation, but He didn't let me go and for that I thank and praise Him today (Isaiah 40:31, Psalm 18:32).
If you'd like to read more about handling trials and struggles in life, here is a wonderful post by Jen of Going By Faith. I'll be praying for each and every one of you as you go through this week!