It's week 5,guys!!
This week I learned how to simply let go and let God. I have been dealing with some major stuff all summer that, honestly, wasn't my fault, but I was pushed into it. In the end, I wound up confused, humiliated, hurt, and unsure of the future. I allow myself to get bogged down with thoughts of guilt, regret, and not being good enough, which honestly put me into a slight depression that almost lasted most of the summer, but on Wednesday, all of that ended.
So, I did what most people do: I went to Facebook lol. I'll let you read what I wrote; then you'll understand why I did it this way:
"I think I finally understand that not everyone is going to like you and not everyone will appreciate the things you do for them. At the end of the day, all you can do is accept it, decide to be the bigger person, and move on. This summer has been extremely tumultuous and I've had to face things I never thought I would. Now looking back on it, I appreciate it because I learned a lot about myself and it allowed me to become closer to God, which is the most important thing that could have ever happened.
And since a majority of this was started publicly, I am going to end it publicly. With that being said, Alyssa, I know we don't have the most cordial relationship anymore, but if you're reading this just know that I apologize for any wrongdoing I may have done against you and I also want you to know that I forgive you for any wrongdoing you may have done towards me. And Trevon, I also have decided to forgive you as well. Whatever decision you make or path your life may take, just know that I'm behind you 100%, whatever that may be.
Now I am done with reckless foolishness and childish behavior. I hope we can all move forward as adults and the Christians God so desperately wants us to be. Be blessed."
I know it may seem simple or a bit crazy to some people, but I knew it was something I needed to do for me. And after I let it out, I felt so much better! Notice, I didn't tag anybody; I didn't even put last names. The people involved didn't respond; they didn't have to. I didn't do it to please them; I did it to heal myself (Matthew 6:14-15, Ephesians 4:32).
Forgiveness, in essence, is a selfish thing. Yes, you give forgiveness to another person, but in the end, forgiveness is something that helps you, as well as them. You can't walk around with all of those negative feelings in your heart, because you're the only one who will suffer from it, not the other guy. They'll be walking around just as fine while you're laying down sick because you couldn't learn to let go (Matthew 6:12).
There comes a time in all of our lives where we just need to come to terms with the fact that sometimes, we just have to throw in the towel and say, "God, take it. Take it all." I know it's hard; it's a day-by-day thing, I get it. But it's not impossible. If He did it for me, I know He'll do it for you.
This week was fairly short, but I think it was straight to the point! I hope I have inspired something to finally let that burden they are carrying against someone else go.